Title: Grief (Oneshot)
Rating: PG-13 (for extremely slight cursing)
Summary: Neku's thoughts after the events of Week 2
Warning: Huge spoilers for Week 2! ( I’m happy you’re happy. Just don’t tell him where you heard, hmm? )
( Why can't I just do something right for once? ) I got her dragged back into this. But I’ll be damned if I let it end this way! I’m winning this Game. And I’m not relying on other Players doing it for me.
Hmph.
“Hmph,” what!? Weren’t you listening!?
Uh-huh. And here’s me playing the world’s tiniest violin.
You little…I just—
Did you think you were special? Every Player here put up something they loved. Everybody makes sacrifices.
You were inhuman! You just wanted things to work out for you, and you just didn’t care about anyone else. That’s why you would never sacrifice this much for me! Not now, when we were so close to winning!
You wouldn’t because you’re just like me! Stupidly cutting off everything around you like it will solve anything or help anyone!
I just need to do my own thing like CAT. Forget about other people and just enjoy my life…
Absolutely. Who needs other people’s values? It’s easier to just live by your own rules.
But…I guess I did care…
Hee hee... He said it suits you, Neku.
I was horrible to him, just because of my stupid suspicions that he was my killer. Did it even matter at that point?
How’d you die, Neku?
What? You tell me, ass—I don’t know.
Don’t know? Is that even possible?
My memory was the entry fee last Game. Most of it’s back, but…there are still a few holes. What about you? How did you die?
Hee hee…Not telling.
I asked him like it was nothing, like they were such great memories.
He even acted like my friend.
Cat…no way!
Yes, way. CAT is Mr. H.
NO WAY! Mr. Hanekoma!? Is CAT!?! Whoa…whoa! OK! Calm down.
Hee hee.I’ll try.
I didn’t deserve this type of sacrifice…
I’m happy you’re happy. Just don’t tell him where you heard, hmm?
My first true friend? I don’t know what to call you Josh.
And…I’ll never know. I was stupid…I’ll never find out, and isn’t this just like me. Unable to do anything to protect the people I got into trouble…the people I hurt…
You little bastard…Only what you TOOK from me! YOU killed me!
Aww, Neku. You said you didn’t remember! You sneaky little thing. So what if I did?
What?!
What if I am the one who killed you? You’re going to do something about it?
You dumbass…you didn’t even fucking defend yourself…just giving all that up like it was nothing to you…
Neku, look out!
Wha—
Even after that…you still…you still cared! You still stayed with me…
Well, Neku? Do we send in the cavalry?
Let’s do it. They’ll hate it.
You’re so vindictive.
All my fault…as usual…if I’d just fought harder…or moved a little bit faster, I could’ve saved you.
Look out! That psych’s a Lv. i Flare!
If I’d just…stopped thinking about myself…Why didn’t I listen to him more…
Why can’t I just do something right for once?
Why did you give up your life, your annoying little giggle, your everything, just for my worthless existence?!
Josh…
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